Monday, December 3, 2012

The Post I Wish Were Not True

I used to blog all the time.  And I LOVE writing and recording our lives here.  But sometimes life gets in the way and I drop out for a while.  I've been so completely exhausted with this pregnancy that I have hardly been at my computer, much less taken the time to document this most special event.

And of all the times I neglected writing and all the events I've neglected recording, I will forever most regret not recording the last few months.

For those closest to me, I offer sincere apologies that you may be hearing our news here.  I simply cannot endure having to say some things over and over.

Tuesday, Scott and I had a regular OB appointment and Dave surprised us by pulling the ultrasound machine in the room so we could find out the baby's gender.  He was immediately concerned and quickly sent us to another room for a more advanced ultrasound.  There were some serious concerns about what we could see and he got the specialist to rush us in first thing Wednesday morning for an even more advanced ultrasound and a possible amniocentesis.

Basically, the baby is filled with too much fluid.  It probably started as two big cysts at his/her neck and has just spread from there.  Everything structurally looked perfect but he (?) also has extensive edema. My precious baby is incredibly swollen. In the next few weeks, his perfect little heart will not be able to pump against the pressure of the fluid and he'll pass away.  I'll then be induced and will deliver.

But for now, we wait. And pray. And hope for a miracle.

We are of course heartbroken.  I am only surviving because I know that God has a reason for making this a part of our journey.  I'm not sure what the reason is yet, but I have faith that one day we'll understand it.

Within a day or two I will post more about my feelings and how we are all processing this news.  


5 comments:

Melissa Corley said...

Yall will be in our daily prayers amd we will pray for a miracle and believe that God will guide us through the journey and all will be wonderful. The Herring family will always forever be in our hearts and prayers. We love you all.



The Corley's

Donna King said...

We have never met, i am friends with Jennifer Jessicas friend! Im sending this text completely heartbroken inside and tears flowing! What can i possibly say? I believe God has a plan for our lives, he knows all and is in control!!!! I believe in miracles, and i am praying for this for you and your family!!!! I pray God gives you the strength and peace you need that only he can provide! You and your family are in my prayers!!!!! <3

Anonymous said...

I am so, so sorry. I am praying that you and your family are given peace that goes beyond our understanding, that as you live moment by moment through this He will give you the strength you need. Andrea Griffin

Charlene Patterson said...

Jesus promises that everything we boldly ask for in His name and according to His will can be granted. I just wanted you to know that I will be recalling that promise in my prayers for you, Dr. Herring, Sam and baby.
~Charlene

Mama Millwood said...

I've never met you either but we have several friends in common, The Stallards, the Wickers, and the Walleys to start. I am so heart broken by your news. Have faith that God has a plan. I have not lost a child this far in pregnancy but I have lost four earlier. We were finally blessed with our second son on September 11, 2012. It was a two year long road with lots of ups and downs. Lean on those around you and know that we are all praying for you and your family. A blessing will come your way.